I'm so freaking hungry
Lately, I’m hungry all the time. And it makes me mad. What makes me less mad? Eating. You see my dilemma?
If you are now expecting playfully-constructed attempts at introducing health and wisdom into this topic, go somewhere else. I’m not in the mood today.
I know myself well enough to understand this is a nonproductive coping mechanism so I need to get in touch with the underneath struggle and cope without self-destruction. Blah, blah, blah. I could also get some tamales and deal with my junk tomorrow.
Self-awareness needs a pause button some times. I will come back to it. I will not undo all progress with one day of known crazy. And it helped to write that down.
I get that not all problem behaviors can be ignored even for a day and not all people have the luxury of delayed health seeking. However, there are moments [for me] where it’s ok to notice the pattern without feeling the stupid pressure to defeat all related demons.
So, tamales today and reflection tomorrow.
8/23/2017 03:31:23 pm
Yes! Awareness is a double-edged sword sometimes huh? But I think I heard somewhere that awareness is healthy. It's the intentional decision that follows the awareness that means you are moving forward. Love the reminder to not be judgy all over yourself about it.
8/23/2017 06:52:58 pm
I am suddenly soooo hungry for tamales . . . .
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